I’ve been getting back to my old self now, I guess exams have been taking my mind off of *stuff* but it’s good to have people around to talk to. I recently got to use my first aid skills quite a lot, patched up a hand and someone’s nose hahaha. I’ve been studying a lot of neurological diseases such as Parkinson’s, Alzheimer’s, unipolar depression etc. Reading the symptoms I can really empathise with sufferers and it makes me wonder, after the age of 40, things go very very downhill… We have to start worrying about so many health problems. So I’ve made it my new-found goal to use every single day of my summer wisely, I will up my productivity 1000%, and I need to; I have to make up for a lot of lost time….

Today is my birthday.

UPDATE

-Studying for exams

-KO’d at friend’s birthday by accident (and had a cake fight)

-Found out I can apply for a dissertation about Michael Jackson

-Got my new belt for TKD

-Got a new Moleskine to keep notes in

-Realised elections are just POPULARITY contests

-Better at saving money now

-Got a haircut and £150 worth of free perfumes

-MORE STUDYING…..

A sonnet I wrote for a certain girl last year - removed her name for obvious reasons.

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From the origin upon where we met

That very moment which I shared with you

A moment that I will never forget

My deepest wishes and dreams had come true

I wish to lose myself in your embrace

Your voice resonating throughout my soul

Feeling the soft smile across your face

Knowing that it is you which makes me whole

And may our love forever intertwine

A part of me with which I will impart

The one wish for you to always be mine 

Only to you I will devote my heart

Sweetest _ _ _ _ _ a final thing to say

I will love you every single day

Past few days have been interesting.. Firstly I got a load of abuse for not going to taekwondo training… People saying if I even know what to do for the grading and “what is this training you speak of??” >.>

Met up with Winston and Tim since it was Winston’s birthday and reminisced of the old secondary school times.. I really do miss those simpler days…

Japanese is going ok.. But need to up my speak and listening skills >D

Also, got eccless cake thinking it was eggless -__-; It wasn’t too bad though.. AND apart from that, it’s study time! Going to start watching a new drama :D

The week has been repetitive for me, in more than one sense. You know that feeling where you don’t feel tired but stay in bed? Yeah.

That loser named Yvonne came down from Nottingham to see me, so I took her on a made-up route through Charing Cross to the Odeon to watch HUNGER GAMES - which is an awesome movie (similar to Battle Royale). I did make her wait 30minutes in the cold though hahahah :D. She managed to lose her phone in the cinema too so I knew that wouldn’t end well with her mum spam calling her, but we found it eventually xD

The weather has been really weird too, but I guess one might call it a form of pathetic fallacy? The weather reflecting one’s emotions… Quite confused emotions. Taekwondo grading next month too, I learnt a new form too just because it looked like fun to learn :D But apart from that.. Exam revision is still ongoing :(

Oh and I heard TV sellers are going to make the biggest loss? Don’t go selling TVs anytime soon :P

Life has been so strange lately.. I’m unsure about a lot of things right now. I wish everything was simple like it was 8 months ago… I guess what I felt back then was true happiness being with her, but then I lost it.. Now I think just what will happen in the future? I have exams to focus on for the time being though..

Today for lunch I met up with some friends, of course it was Nando’s again… A Nando’s that tried scamming my free chicken and then scammed me with the FROYO (only vanilla flava?!). Afterwards Vivian pointed out an adultstore… There was some weird machine where it tells you how sexy you are if you put in 20p and place your hand on it. We watched tentatively as the red lights on it flashed round and round and then on the screen… 10/10! Ahahahaahhahhaa win:P

Afterwards I went around for a walk and while looking for my glasses I somehow sliced my finger on a sharpener, which is kinda my fault since I really do need a pencil case.. >.> But thank god I have a pharmacy in my bag, so easily managed to patch up the cut XD 

Sometimes I miss her but I always wonder if she ever misses me. Why do I hold onto just hope and faith? If only I had some sort of hint on how she truly feels, does she feel the way I feel for her..?

Holding on isn’t easy.

Well today I raised 600 pounds for the Birmingham Children’s Hospital. I feel that we need to concentrate more on children because the children of today will be tomorrow’s future.. :)

So many deadlines, coming faster than I can beat them… Already attempted 62 hours without sleep and I can definitely say with confidence that I never want to do that again… Ever..

After my trip to Izakaya and forcing myself to eat a half dozen tuna/salmon rolls to avoid a 5 quid fine, I finally got to work the next day. Spent the day working on an essay and decided to call her. She was asleep since she’s a nocturnal night owl but was waking up anyway xD. I asked if she wanted to get food with me since I was starting to get hungry anyway.. So the plan was originally food but then changed to dessert but we ended up getting both :P. Got to Bibimbap and we both went for the same dish (fillet beef mmmmmmm)… Then head across the street to a nice icecream place called Lick Gelato! They have sooooo many flavours, including lychee (her fav flavour of everything bahaha). We ended up having an ice cream race and SHE BEAT ME!! Grrr!

Well.. Spending the evening with her made me realise how much I miss her, I miss doing things with her, sharing experiences and just everything.. I wonder if anything will happen again.